There has still been no movement in our adoption. No file has been locked. Nothing. One of my friends from my online group said it the best when she said to me, "You're waiting for the ok to fall in love with a girl you've already fallen in love with." So true, so true. It's really painful and I don't think I could have understood it until I was in the midst of it.
There is one thing that is keeping us in this without completely going over the edge. God keeps showing up in small ways to remind us we're on the right path and that He's still in this. When I was in college, a few friends and I went to a church about an hour away from our school. We lived on campus, so the distance to the church caused us to miss lunch by the time we arrived back to the school. In this wonderful little church were several families that would invite us over for lunch so we wouldn't starve. We mostly went to one family's house and they were so welcoming and fun. They always had amazing food and a nice place to rest and do homework. I still keep in touch with them and they have since adopted their daughter from China. She sent me this email today:
Just wanted to let you know that we are still collecting coins for your adoption. Our jar is about half full. I love how God provides coins and just wanted to share the last couple with you. This week when I went down to do laundry, there was 51 cents laying on the dryer. And yesterday, we were eating lunch out and looked down on the booth seat and there was a quarter. It wasn't there when I sat down, because I slid over that part of the seat! Love how God provides!
I love how God not only provide funds, but encouragement when you feel so defeated. Thanks to this wonderful family for thinking of us, helping us with funds, and for their reminder of God's faithfulness!
Friday, June 28, 2013
Thursday, June 13, 2013
We can't do this alone...
Dear Friends & Family,
I decided today that enough is enough and I have to admit I can't do this alone. We need you. We need you to pray. Three weeks ago, we reviewed the file of the down-right cutest little 21 month old you ever did see. We love her. So much. But we haven't been able to lock her file due to some issues I'd rather not get into. We need to lock her file in order for us to adopt HER and for the process to keep moving. We're at a complete standstill without knowing if we'll even be able to do this. Can you please pray for us? Pray that we can lock her file, pray that the obstacles to locking the file will be resolved very quickly, pray that we have the strength to keep waiting. Twice now I've told God, "I can't do it God, I can't wait even one more day. Today has to be the day; if it isn't, I don't know how I will keep going on not knowing." Within minutes of both times I've prayed that, I've gotten an email that said I'd be waiting at least another week (not from God; although, that would have been interesting...). And then, after much anger, irritation, and crying, I realize I CAN go another hour, day, or even week if I am depending on His strength and am trusting Him to make this all work out. Just pray for both Mark and I as we are both feeling emotionally drained and lonely in our waiting. I wish so much that this was a time of celebration; I wish I was shouting to the world that we found our daughter. But instead we don't know. We feel like we know, but really we don't.
Thank you for your prayers.
Love,
Jodi & Mark
I decided today that enough is enough and I have to admit I can't do this alone. We need you. We need you to pray. Three weeks ago, we reviewed the file of the down-right cutest little 21 month old you ever did see. We love her. So much. But we haven't been able to lock her file due to some issues I'd rather not get into. We need to lock her file in order for us to adopt HER and for the process to keep moving. We're at a complete standstill without knowing if we'll even be able to do this. Can you please pray for us? Pray that we can lock her file, pray that the obstacles to locking the file will be resolved very quickly, pray that we have the strength to keep waiting. Twice now I've told God, "I can't do it God, I can't wait even one more day. Today has to be the day; if it isn't, I don't know how I will keep going on not knowing." Within minutes of both times I've prayed that, I've gotten an email that said I'd be waiting at least another week (not from God; although, that would have been interesting...). And then, after much anger, irritation, and crying, I realize I CAN go another hour, day, or even week if I am depending on His strength and am trusting Him to make this all work out. Just pray for both Mark and I as we are both feeling emotionally drained and lonely in our waiting. I wish so much that this was a time of celebration; I wish I was shouting to the world that we found our daughter. But instead we don't know. We feel like we know, but really we don't.
Thank you for your prayers.
Love,
Jodi & Mark
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